Friday, May 28, 2010

Survive Life In Minutes


Survive Life In Minutes.

It took a friend to turn my Blog name around to get me to see what I should have.

For some reason the Cosmos has decided to test my mettle and has been lobbing round after round of tough stuff my way. Contrary to what some think, I have never lead a charmed life to begin with. I have, however, been blessed with the ability to take things in stride. Weather the storm if you will. At least I thought so until recently.

Now the Cosmos wasn’t just sending things my way, sending me things to deal with. No…the Cosmos mostly took things away from me. Things I wanted, things I need. I think that’s what disturbs me most. How much I lost. How much I’m still losing.

Setting aside my only child notions of “this is mine!”, I still am reeling from just how much is gone. I’ve lost significantly in just about every area of my life. Work life, Family life, Personal life…you name it…something or someone is gone. Some of the loss is visible to others, some of it came from places only I know about. No matter the source…it’s gone and it hurts.

I can rebound, I can recover…I always do. What’s been the struggle is getting hit with so many things coming from so many directions...and seemingly all at once. I used a metaphor of ocean waves to describe how I feel. One can wade into the water and everything is just fine. Then a sudden wave hits and knocks you off balance. That’s fine because you recover, you get your legs under you and you are back to standing again. Then comes another wave, one you didn’t see approaching and this time it's water in your mouth, and you are wobbly but still able to stand. The next wave hits and wham…you’re down and choking. Halfway to standing you get hit again and this time you get knocked flat, skin raw as your knees scrape on the sand. Now you can’t see from the salt water sting in your eyes, you are disoriented and starting to feel a bit frightened. You know you have to get up because by now you know another wave is coming. As my friend said, “You'll have to crawl to the shore - as hard as that seems”.

As hard as that seems. And crawl I do…because I want to survive. I want to get up and get on with life. Live life as it should be lived. The way it should be lived.

As I choose to Live My Life In Minutes … so must I accept the stormy seas. I'll accept those stormy, raging and unforgiving seas, I'll accept them, I'll stand up to them and I'll survive them. One minute at a time.

Survive Life In Minutes.
Indeed.

Saturday, May 8, 2010

I Say A Little Prayer....


My daughter's Bridal Shower was held a few weeks ago. I read a prayer before the meal. I spent quite a lot of time searching for one that would appropriately express the tone I was hoping for. No matter what prayer I looked at it just wasn't right.


The shower was for my daughter and I wanted the prayer to be personal. I wanted it to mean something. Then I decided to use one that was less emotional, easier for me to read in front of the gathering, and one that struck the right cord. Then I sat and wrote the one I wanted to, the one that I will give to her someday soon. One that came straight from my heart to hers.

It's my prayer for my lovely daughter.

Heavenly Father, we thank you for the blessing of family and friends who are here today in celebration of "their" upcoming wedding.

I thank You for not taking me that day, for allowing me to remain with her and be the mother I so wanted to be.

Be with them now as they prepare their hearts for the gift of marriage, and be with them always as they grow in their unconditional love and face the ups and downs of life together.

Life is so hard, so many obstacles get thrown at us, help them to reach for each other when things go wrong. Walk along beside them and gently nudge them back on the path when they go astray.
Protect them physically, mentally and spiritually. Help them to accept one another as they are and leave any changing that needs to be done in Your hands.

Help them to see, in each other, the things they can draw strength from, the safe place they can provide the other and the acceptance that only comes from pure love. Let them see in each other what they are rather than what they want the other to be.
Finally, in your time, please help them to offer the world a tangible symbol of their love and commitment.

Help them to remain absolutely silly in love, head over heels, full of infectious joy, such that others will feel when they are near.
We thank You, Lord, for this meal prepared today. We thank You for all of the wonderful women present, who took the time to be here with us today.

Let her see the successes, the fruits from the labor of commitment that some of these women grew in their own marriages. Let them be the example to her, proof that it can be done.
We thank You for giving us all joyful and happy hearts as two sets of families and friends come together to celebrate the new life they will begin together.

Let them draw support from us, let us always encourage them as a couple, as a unit, and not look at the other family as "them" but as "us". Help us to show the true meaning of strength in numbers and help us to stand with them when they need us.
We ask that you give us grateful hearts as well. Make us mindful of the needs of those who are without the love we are celebrating today.

Help us to show a positive example of love whether we have it ourselves or not. Help them to see that what they have in each other is a delicate treasure and to treat it as such. Help them to cling to what so many never catch a glimpse of and to hold tight when they hit the bumps that inevitably come through living in this world.
Help them to clearly see the road ahead as a journey to be traveled ... hand in hand. Help them to understand that when one stops the other is to reach back and not keep going until the other is ready. Help them to see that neither of them, alone, is perfect...but together, they can be perfection.
And finally, for my daughter, for this lovely young woman I cherish. Let her future husband see how special she is, let him see what he has in her, how she has added to his life and how she has made him the better man for loving him the way she does. Help him to let her inside and keep her there, close to his heart where she belongs. Where she deserves to be.

Help them to succeed where so many fail. Help them to keep trying no matter how hard, no matter how angry, no matter how much hurt has been inflicted. Help them to see that in You all things are possible.
AmenIndeed.